If you have been on this journey with me since the beginning, you may want to read it. If not, it may not be of interest to you. I feel I owe it to you to say all of this. The TLDR: I am placing my podcast on hiatus as I dedicate myself to MAHA - to help the American people – and those across the world – be healthy again. But there are many details you may want to humble me by reading, and I feel I should share them. (PS: I often write to a soundtrack. Today, it happened to be this one. You can read with the music on.)
The past several years have been a personal awakening for me. I travel back to 2001, when I started this journey. In 2001, I realized that I was what I called a “fixer.” I wanted to help fix things I perceived as broken. The government became the one thing I focused on. I dove into that headfirst. It would be several years before I realized that it had a title. “Activist,” I was told by someone on the opposite side of an issue I was debating – “You are an activist.”
I still had a professional career outside of “activism” at that point. And then, I became a wife and a mother, and I realized once more that I wanted to help make the world a place where my little children could grow up in JOY. To communicate the truth to people, I had to learn everything about everything I could. And I did. It was with this knowledge that I dove headfirst into sharing truth everywhere I could. I was really good at it.
First, it was in 2006, and it was about big pharma and food. Then, it was in 2008-2012 about personal liberty, the constitution, and corruption in government. In 2016, I was alerting people to the horrors of pedophilia and ritual abuse. From 2017 to 2020, I informed people about the corruption inside the government, including SpyGate and the impeachments. (And a LOT more in between).
I started my own media company because no one wanted to print the truth I had uncovered. I called it “ UncoverDC.” I started a podcast because I had so much inside of me I needed to get out. I called it “Dark to Light.”
From 2020-2024 it was back to health again, as I focused all of my energy on justice for the harms faced during the COVID-19 pandemic and the aftermath. I focused everything I had on providing as much information as possible so NO ONE made an uninformed decision about the shot. I lost so many – friends, family, so many were lost to that shot… Everything melded together; health, politics, corruption – all of it.
But somewhere along the way, I realized that I was more broken than what I was trying to fix. Somewhere along the way, I lost sight of my true purpose here, my “why,” and things got miserable. It was then that God began placing things in my path to make me remember.
I was stubborn. I ignored many of them at first – and probably for a long while. Illness in my family, illness inside of myself, a loss of any light inside of me. I forgot why I came here. When I started to remember again (and my husband started wanting to heal himself as well), I stopped placing poison in my body. It was an overwhelming necessity. I was repelled by things I used to absolutely love. I dove in head first. The more healthy I became, the more I began to remember.
I got into journalism to educate the public – to provide them a place they could go where they knew they were getting the *actual* truth, hence our tagline “actual” journalism. But as the landscape changed, I realized I wasn’t getting much fulfillment from it anymore. Most people didn’t place the same importance on it – and it wasn’t why I was here anyway. It was a chapter in my life, but it wasn’t my “why.” Politics wasn’t my “why.” PEOPLE were my “why.”
The fire for investigative journalism dimmed but didn’t extinguish completely. Months and months of sleepless nights – months of anguish – maybe years – all because I was ignoring why God placed me on this earth - even though He was telling me in all sorts of ways. The amount of internal pain caused because I thought that my human self knew better – I can’t quantify it, but it was so very necessary. All of it was.
I started to remember as I searched. “WHY AM I EVEN HERE!?” I SCREAMED this inside of myself every single day. Journalism as a sole tenet wasn’t it. There was more. I couldn’t find it. I couldn’t figure it out. I felt purposeless, meaningless, and useless—like I was failing. I don’t believe in failure. I realized that I was ready to heal mentally as well as my physical body.
I had to go WAY back and heal all sorts of things I pushed aside into my “attic,” as I called it. There was a box all the way in the back I crammed every trauma, every painful thing into. And it was overflowing. The work is hard, and it doesn’t end. But the more I healed those parts of me that were broken, the more I heard Him. The more joy I felt, the more wonder I noticed around me. And I wanted to share that with everyone.
Some people didn’t like it – “Why is Tracy so different?? Why isn’t she yelling and fiery and angry anymore, like we are.” The answer to that was that I found God again – fully. And I realized so strongly that we are not here on this earth to be in perpetual anger, fear, and judgment. There was a bright, bright light inside of me – and it was time for it to come out.
I remembered my “Why.” I am here to be a servant. Deep inside the depths of my soul, I know my purpose. I am here to help. I want nothing more than to help people. All kinds of people, too – those sad who forgot the truth of them the way I did. Those who want to learn how to treat the temple that is their body with the love it deserves. Those who want to learn about how to reconnect to that wellness so that they can take their power back and remember the truth of who they really are. So they can find God again. The way that I did. There is NOTHING else I want to do. I want to serve. Flashback 25 years to when that spark was first truly ignited – full circle.
To that end, I have had to sit in quiet contemplation about many things. How do I best walk the path He has set for me every single day? How do I best serve? What is the most effective way to shine my light to as many people as possible, whether behind the scenes or in front for a bit? And, where am *I* feeling that spark inside of myself – the light that makes life? My purpose?
I have finally come to my answer, and this chapter of my life will be dedicated to doing my part to inform, encourage, hug, and help every single human being who feels that little pull inside of themselves to make themselves better so that THEIR light can shine again. Journalism is still a part of that – but in a slightly different way.
You are seeing this all around you right now – we are at a precipice. Old systems are falling down, and new ones are being built. There is a spiritual awakening happening as well. I have the unique opportunity to work closely with the people at the cutting edge of this evolution, and my SOUL screams that THIS is why I am here. Aside from being a dedicated wife and mother - THIS is why I live and breathe. It is to be of service to everyone and anyone who needs the information, tools, guidance, and love – to join in the evolution of humanity.
So, UncoverDC will continue. I couldn’t walk away from the baby I birthed out of passion for truth – but I need to also dedicate myself to MAHA. There will be a few announcements in the coming days and weeks about what I am doing to this end – and I am so full of excitement for all of them. I am also humbled that fellow dedicated servants have asked me to be a part of this – there is nowhere I would rather be.
To the family who has followed me along this journey the entire time, I hope you connect with and find peace in what I am saying. We are still family. And we still need your support at UncoverDC. There is a mission there, too. Also, there is no telling when my passion will fuel me into a great one-hour video rant.
To my X family on my subscription page, spaces will continue – nothing will change except maybe the time/day. The only thing that is changing right now is that my podcast- one I have been doing for YEARS – will be on indefinite suspension until God tells me otherwise.
For my entire life, all I have wanted to do is give, help, make people smile, and feel joy and love. Now, I can focus fully on giving all that I am to that cause. I never, ever suggest things to people that I didn’t experience myself. The past five years have been some of the hardest years of my life—for ME. But now that I have done all of this work, I see nothing but love and light in the future.
I love all of you, so very much. I’ve never meant anything more. Stay tuned…
